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I'm very often mean, Diva. It's simply who I am. But you are pitiful just as well as I am. But I didn't mean to unload all of that onto you. I shouldn't have done that.

It's just very ironic what I want to talk about. The timing and all.

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we can have a pity party then
its okay
i complain to you all the time
what did you want to talk about

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The person I've been in love with for centuries. The one who thought of me as a joke.

He confessed his love for me, asked me to become his lover. Which, I suppose, we are now...

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are you happy

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Cautiously so.

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congratulations
im happy for you
see you're not so unloved after all

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I think he's mistaken about his feelings. I don't see how he has decided after centuries to tell me he's always loved me. Quickly he will realize he never did. Somebody else made him believe he did.

The bastard has always gone out of his way to make a joke of me.

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maybe hes just an idiot
if he hurts you though just kill him
or i can

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Of course he's an idiot. He's obnoxious, vain, a goddamn child, and overdramatic!

And as much as I appreciate the sentiment, it would be impossible for you to kill him. Not an insult to your strength because I know how strong you are but he has the blood of our original Mother flowing through him.

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oh that makes sense
well if hes rude ignore him
people like that hate being ignored

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I know how to handle him. I've known him longer than many. Only his own mother beats me in the years I have known him.

But I just hate the idea of all of this to be some joke. I already warned him that I would hate him entirely if he didn't take me seriously.

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what reason would he have to lie now to you
especially in this place

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We have not always had a good relationship. I threw him off a roof once. I don't regret it. It felt good and he deserved it.

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i think thats pretty tame

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There's a few more details to the story but it's a long story and I doubt you want to hear it.

But he did punch my face in only a couple of months prior.

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then he really deserved it

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It's hardly anything of consequence. I healed before the day was over and he was only throwing a fit because I told him no.

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maybe hes more pitiful than we are

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Hah! I agree. [This is the man he claims to love more than any other.]

Thank you for speaking with me. Strangely I feel better.

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youre welcome
thats because it makes you feel less alone
when you share your feelings

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I've never found that it helps me to feel less alone but then again, I probably never shared them to the right people.

How are you?

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im okay i think
i had a nasty time at the reeducation center
i didnt do anything but i got in trouble
also saya left
i miss her but she will never love me no matter what i do or how good i try to be
she tried to kill me and my babies and didnt even apologize
it makes me pretty sad
i dont think tsurugi will let me turn him either
i dont think hes ready for that kind of commitment

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[Well here we go.]

Let me make a list. You just threw a lot at me.

1. Are you okay? What did they do to you?
2. I know she did. I am very sorry but shouldn't you be happy she is back where she may be happier? Love is a sacrifice which goes into my next points.
3. I know with my kind, we often attempt each other's lives even if it was a law that we could never kill our own. However, you have centuries to repair that.
4. Of course she did. You shouldn't be able to have any children. Who knew what monstrosity was in there? Think logically. This isn't just any old world, this is a world that has deemed itself wanting to torture us.
5. You are asking him to give up everything he has ever known and he has only known you for how long? Diva, be reasonable. You are asking a man to give up his entire species for you. He is owed some time.

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1. yeah im okay...they wanted to make sure tsurugi could handle me so they let multiple men have their way with me only for him to come in afterwards and put on a show to make me 'submit' i didnt like it at all
2. shell never be happy because she hates herself
3. i know shes been trying to kill me for awhile but she had stopped that here i thought we had talked things out i was giving her space that she wanted and everything
4. theyre not monstrosities theyre babies just because theyre not human doesnt mean theyre monsters dont call them that it hurts
5. im giving him time ive never given someone a choice before im trying
i just want a bridegroom and a family especially now that saya has disowned me more than i thought was possible
i dont want to go through eternity alone armand

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1. I'm sorry. [It's brief but really, Armand understands and though she can't know, that apology is real and earnest. That isn't something he would want someone to go through.]
2. Perhaps she will never be fully happy but happier where she is than here. At least.
3. Then if you see her again, it may not be centuries. It could be shorter than that. You're on your way to a healthy, sisterly relationship. Maybe.
4. I accept that I am a monster and have been for a long time. It's like they say, acceptance is the first step. That being said, I just don't trust anything from this place and you would be smart to do so as well. Why would they give you the exception to having children? Diva, it shouldn't be possible here. Don't be naive and think why would they give you something that you want? To be nice? Doubtful. You told me you know about survival? Then act it.
5. What has it been? Two months? That's nothing in the span of your lifetime. Being alone is hard, there is no doubt about that. But if you rush things then you may not have a choice in the matter and will be alone. Don't push away people you care about with your own greediness.