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It's hardly anything of consequence. I healed before the day was over and he was only throwing a fit because I told him no.

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maybe hes more pitiful than we are

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Hah! I agree. [This is the man he claims to love more than any other.]

Thank you for speaking with me. Strangely I feel better.

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youre welcome
thats because it makes you feel less alone
when you share your feelings

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I've never found that it helps me to feel less alone but then again, I probably never shared them to the right people.

How are you?

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im okay i think
i had a nasty time at the reeducation center
i didnt do anything but i got in trouble
also saya left
i miss her but she will never love me no matter what i do or how good i try to be
she tried to kill me and my babies and didnt even apologize
it makes me pretty sad
i dont think tsurugi will let me turn him either
i dont think hes ready for that kind of commitment

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[Well here we go.]

Let me make a list. You just threw a lot at me.

1. Are you okay? What did they do to you?
2. I know she did. I am very sorry but shouldn't you be happy she is back where she may be happier? Love is a sacrifice which goes into my next points.
3. I know with my kind, we often attempt each other's lives even if it was a law that we could never kill our own. However, you have centuries to repair that.
4. Of course she did. You shouldn't be able to have any children. Who knew what monstrosity was in there? Think logically. This isn't just any old world, this is a world that has deemed itself wanting to torture us.
5. You are asking him to give up everything he has ever known and he has only known you for how long? Diva, be reasonable. You are asking a man to give up his entire species for you. He is owed some time.

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1. yeah im okay...they wanted to make sure tsurugi could handle me so they let multiple men have their way with me only for him to come in afterwards and put on a show to make me 'submit' i didnt like it at all
2. shell never be happy because she hates herself
3. i know shes been trying to kill me for awhile but she had stopped that here i thought we had talked things out i was giving her space that she wanted and everything
4. theyre not monstrosities theyre babies just because theyre not human doesnt mean theyre monsters dont call them that it hurts
5. im giving him time ive never given someone a choice before im trying
i just want a bridegroom and a family especially now that saya has disowned me more than i thought was possible
i dont want to go through eternity alone armand

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1. I'm sorry. [It's brief but really, Armand understands and though she can't know, that apology is real and earnest. That isn't something he would want someone to go through.]
2. Perhaps she will never be fully happy but happier where she is than here. At least.
3. Then if you see her again, it may not be centuries. It could be shorter than that. You're on your way to a healthy, sisterly relationship. Maybe.
4. I accept that I am a monster and have been for a long time. It's like they say, acceptance is the first step. That being said, I just don't trust anything from this place and you would be smart to do so as well. Why would they give you the exception to having children? Diva, it shouldn't be possible here. Don't be naive and think why would they give you something that you want? To be nice? Doubtful. You told me you know about survival? Then act it.
5. What has it been? Two months? That's nothing in the span of your lifetime. Being alone is hard, there is no doubt about that. But if you rush things then you may not have a choice in the matter and will be alone. Don't push away people you care about with your own greediness.

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4. im no more a monster than a lion or a crocodile is you were human once but i never was dont call me a monster or my babies armand im not human so of course my babies will be different i came from a cocoon too you know
5. im trying okay im trying to be patient ive never been so long without a chevalier before

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I never said crocodiles and lions weren't monsters, Diva. I also hardly think you're a monster because of how you came to this world. Really, a cocoon seems less awful than human childbirth anyway. Less grotesque.
If you cannot be patient now then I fear for your ability to make it more than one century. But for right now, enjoy him as he is and these moments. They will never come back.

In my world, the relationship between a fledgling and their Maker cannot ever last. Inevitably, you end up hating them. Some may not agree with me but it is true.

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im being patient though...im trying
but youre right ill enjoy him as he is now until he says hes ready
the only chevalier i made that i didnt care for were the ones i was told to make

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I only ever made one.

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i made quite a few
my favourites were killed though
except for amshel hes still alive he was my first
and i guess i like solomon but he was pushy sometimes

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How many do you keep with you?

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4 were alive before i came here

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How many have you made? Not just the ones you keep with you.

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uhhh 8 in total over the years
those are just chevalier though
cinq fleches used my blood to make lots and lots of chiropterans though

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Eight? You have even Lestat beat.

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well i am a queen armand

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You know, though, there is a reason why royalty tends to die out. Unless we think of it like ants and bees. But somehow, I doubt you want to be compared to an insect.

Which, funnily enough, my ex lover called me one once.

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i dont plan on letting my species die out
how rude
i hope you bit their head off for a comment like that

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I loved him for it. Daniel understood me. He didn't romanticize me. I loved that about him.

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oh
i dont think anyones ever understood me
but no one has really tried or cared to either

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It took me 500 years to find such a person and really I made a great many mistakes with him.

And he did leave me.

Nothing is perfect, Diva. You have people who are interested in you.