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Diva ([personal profile] colorature) wrote2019-01-19 10:41 pm

DUPLICITY INBOX



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lempereur: (like liquefied and dying sparks)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-24 06:25 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't say I knew everything

it's different with him than it is with wataru. I don't have to know everything to properly see him.

I dont want to give up on wataru. I still love him. But I need him to make an effort, and he hasn't, despite every opportunity. It's painful for me top, Diva.. I don't want to wait for someone who makes me feel like I'm not good enough to earn their trust, much less their love.
lempereur: (Look at this poor boy)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-24 06:37 am (UTC)(link)
You don't need to get involved, Diva. I want him to come to me because he misses me and he wants to, not because you force him to.

I apologize. I shouldn't have said anything.
lempereur: (look through the holes in his eyes)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-24 06:46 am (UTC)(link)
It's alright
Perhaps I am cursed
Always to fall in love with men that I can't truly have, not completely, the way I want to.

...you wouldn't do that, would you?
lempereur: (lyin on the floor shattered)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-24 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
Take Goro away from me.
lempereur: (Look at this poor boy)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-24 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know.

You brought it up.
lempereur: (off in the distance)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-24 07:47 am (UTC)(link)
I know. I know you're just trying to help me. I don't know if it can be helped, though. Even with Goro here, it hurts to see Wataru every day and know that to him, I'm not worth fighting for.

That isn't something you can fix. Hopefully time will help.
lempereur: (but I can't feed on the powerless)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-26 04:51 pm (UTC)(link)
It's alright. Even if I have to seek a new contract, even if he keeps avoiding me. I will persevere.

[ It's not alright. ]
lempereur: (but it's on the table)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-26 05:21 pm (UTC)(link)
He's always at work. That was normally the case, but now it's impossible to get a moment alone with him.
lempereur: (Coming to terms)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-27 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not going to force him to talk to me if he doesn't want to. If he wants me back, he'll make the time to tell me himself.
lempereur: (has filled up with smoke)

[personal profile] lempereur 2021-08-29 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
I am perfectly willing to talk. What I will not do is beg for his love.